change

i have been quite sad recently, not happy, cheerful. a few reasons, main one is cos im losing one of my greatest friends. He's leaving aus, for good, meaning there is a chance im never gonna see him again. He has been a massive part of my life recently, he cares about me in an unimaginable amount, and we just click so well. I see him almost every day.. i don't even know what i'll be doing in my spare time now! Its true- i break into tears just thinking of him leaving my life. It's just such an awful thought. Imagine your best friend, bestest bestest friend. Then imagine them going abroad for good out of their own will. it's so unfair.

there are a few good points.. he has to move on with his life. His future was never meant to be un Aus. I wish him all the success in every aspect. I believe he has the talent to do so.

To make this situation worse, after he's gone, I really have very few people left in my life. I hate wallowing in self pity, but truth is, im just gonna go straight home from uni everyday and stay there, maybe occasionally go out.. wow this sucks.

but it's alright. when you reach the bottom, it can only go uphill from there :). i hope this is the bottom.