officials.

so two things have become official within the last few days.

1. i guess im gonna go malaysia.its been such a hard choice.. with so many factors to consider.. the least important one is that i've pretty much drained out the money i've saved for it cos i thought i wouldnt be going.. so i pretty much have less than a month to save a grand.. i also know some friends who most probs have issues with me going.. i'd like to think i dont care what others think.. but no.. i do in fact care. i dont want to make myself look cheap.. like i hang around for a trip.. i really do wanna spend time with friends. i mean yes, msia has been at the top of my to-go list.. but the main reason would be the mates.. chilling with friends for 3 weeks sounds totes awesome!

i guess things will be different now.. friends probs dont care about me as much.. why do people feel the need to take sides? a relationship is between two people.. if we're cool with the breakup, who is everyone else to judge all this? nonetheless.. i really hope to build things up with everyone.. good mates need extra attention..WELL the main problem with msia.. 3 weeks with the ex will probably weird... awkward at first.. my attack strategy will be frends. hold back all urges andgo with friends.. which actually lead me to the second official..


2. its over. its overitsover. thats the last word. no more lingering, im ready to put it behind me. nothing is going to happen in msia, i swear. i know, even i foresee something happening, but as long as i can help it, friends is the way to go. getting back together will only make things harder, even more complicated. and there is no way, with whats going on in my head, that its possible to get back with him sans problems. so thats the end of that. please.


officiality, i admit isnt my specialty..i often say one thing, but end up giving in to do otherwise. but please, upper power (prferably buddha), help me out here. give me some strength to hold on to my words and do the right thing. merci beaucoup.