it's alright guys, im still alive

so i dont know why i stopped blogging, its not like theres nothing to blog about.. quite alot has happened.. i've had the intention to write about it.. just was lazy.. it doesnt even require a lot of effort does it?

ok so since the last blog, i've decided to go to malay, came back, spent christmas and new years. malay was.. insightful.. i've discovered things i didnt know before, and felt emotions i have also never felt. to put it straight, i defied my blog promise and kinda got back with K in malay.. i told him.. on the first night we chatted, that i had someone back in aus.. we're not dating.. but i know he's waiting for me.. nonetheless, we were both confused, acted on more emotion and logic and took the chance. it caused trouble.. tested friendships (failing some) but lesson learnt anyway. on a different note, in malaysia, i felt very distant from val (and i know you will read this someday). i didnt blame her.. i was being undecisive and stuff.. and she probably had more fun with more problemfree people.. but i was sad.. that she wasnt around when i needed her.. but thats alright val, this year things will be different =) i hope you arent angry with me actually..

so anyway, since coming back to aus.. i still think about K.. alot.. we've talked abit too.. and discussed our feelings.. its mutual =) arent we both glad that we decided to be reckless.. haha

here are some of my fave malay shots =)

but yea i havent forgotten, Mr R is here, and ive told him everything.. explained the situation..he's really devastated.. and really is persistent, but he's slowly getting it.. which is good..

christmas was uneventful, so lets talk about NYE! guess what.. i worked! omgsh yes like what was i thinking! but i guess money-driven me agreed to the triple pay.. haha but it was alright, we had a party after the function finished.. manager- "as i promised guys, go to the bar and grab whatever drink you want" haha it was hektik! everyone was going for JD and jim bean, red label.. it was really festive =D we just drank and hung out at work till the next morning, all safe, and really quite cheerful!!




havent got much planned for the rest of the holidays.. work until my operation day.. in which i will be forced to the wheelchair until around uni i guess.. oh and waiting for the 26th.. which seems to be taking the longest time ever!