stability

Stability is an interesting thing. Some people enjoy having a routine, a boring pattern almost, which they follow everyday, in order to maintain some security and standard in their lives. Where as others (Travellers which work in hospitality, especially!) spend their lives avoiding anything stable, constantly moving around, gaining new experiences, finding new jobs. While i don't think I'm radically one or the other, i've managed to gain some extra stability in my life, and, for now at least, it feels very amazing.

i have never felt so in control, so secure, so comfortable in so long. knowing what you want to do, and working towards it, really shouldn't be taken for granted! What I'm trying to say, i think, is that my days of being a wild, free, reckless spirit are over. Maybe I'm ageing, (turning 21 after all! hah!) or maybe i've just lost my youth. Either way, this transition into a more mature (maybe more boring) me is very refreshing! maybe one day i'll get over it and want more excitement back in my life. perhaps that day i can be radical and make an irrational decision to travel the world! for now, i'll just concentrate on the future, maybe sit at home and knit a few scarves, spend time with those close by, drink tea with the boobies... AND VISIT HUNTER VALLEY NEXT MONTH, JUST COS I CAN!! WHOOOOOOO!!!!

life's great!